Setting your hopes high
just to watch them get dashed across the midnight sky
like weakly shinning stars for all to see.
Such a waste of energy and time.
Such a waste of mental space.
I’m not ready to go through this again.
But maybe that’s just what I need.
To be taken unaware by something suprisingly suprising.
So vulnerable it leaves you cautiously in limbo,
yet so sweet it leaves you skeptically hopeful.
So please tell me this is not another way that will end up the same.
Tell me that it is under Your control.